Anywho, it's no secret that my weight yo-yo's. A lot. After Israel I lost and gained and lost and gained... probably over 120 lbs in total. (ie: lose 20 lbs, gain 15, lose 45 pounds, gain 10, etc...) And when it came time for us to start trying for our second one, I gained it all back. This pregnancy I gained even more and although I lost 5 pounds in that first month after Elijah was born, when I stopped pumping at 2 months, I gained about 15 pounds. Yuck. Here's the heart of the matter: I love food. I think about food a lot. I cook really yummy food (no really, I do). So, I need a little help with those cravings. I get it from these great little pills. Phentermine. Judge as you may, but I've taken them in the past and had great success. And if I could stay on them (or Meridia) then I could maintain a healthy weight too. Today was the first day I took my happy little pill and what a difference!! I had to remind myself to eat lunch and I didn't feel the need for seconds (or thirds- yikes!). Plus, they give me just that extra boost of energy I need to get things done - including exercise.
But truthfully, I can't depend on those great little pills because at some point I have to stop taking them so I can have more babies, and because of other medical reasons that dictate no matter how well you do on them, you can't take them for more than 6 months at a time. So, my New Year's resolutions mostly lie in changing my lifestyle. I resolve to eat better (and stop buying cookies!). I really want to try these green smoothies that seem to be all the rage and try to cook more fish, chicken, and turkey. Maybe I'll even try tofu this year (maybe not). Eat more fresh veggies and fruit. And find joy in exercise (not running though, I hate running). Before I got married I was really in Yoga. It made me feel healthier and so I acted healthier than I really was. I lost 20 lbs last time I was doing Yoga 2 or more times a week. And I got to the point that I could touch my nose to my knees (albeit painfully).
So: Yoga, aerobic exercise, more fresh produce, better proteins, and maybe I will even learn how to make Uncle Stephen's "bug bread" (it doesn't actually have bugs in it, he just puts so many grains, including whole barley, into it that it looks like bugs). It'll be tricky to get in good aerobic exercise when you can't leave the house though. (The high today was like -6 or something... Which reminds me, I was going to go outside today and take a picture of the 2+ feet of snow in our front yard, but I just could not handle it. It's supposed to be 26 degrees or higher on Saturday so we'll try to get out and make a snowman and take pictures of all of this snow. Sorry, back to my healthier lifestyle.)
Bottom line: Heaven help me!
(And if you out there in the blogosphere have any suggestions to for aerobic exercise at home, or recipes for fish I could use your help too. It just has to be light tasting fish. None of that really fishy fish kind of fish. Think Mahi Mahi or Tilapia.)